Honesty, and nothing but.

Mon, 02 Jun 2008 19:24:29 GMT

This blog is going to be exclusively for my ramblings of 'truth' that I've found within myself. Yes, it might be hurtful to some people because I'm not too sure how I think about things myself until I actually give it a good thought or two. So this is a HEADS UP for the few that may stumble on this journal that actually know me online or in real life. These are raw opinions and thoughts without much, if any, censorship. This means some things may come out very mean, angry, or just overall nonsense.

Sorry to say, however, that for those who do not know me - or aren't part of my 'friends' that I feel should be able to read these things, this journal is going to be highly restrictive. I'm not saying that all of my entries are going to be Friends Only; but the majority of them will be because I don't want to be rambling about people that may end up feeling as though I'm trying to "belittle them" in the public view. I feel I'm entitled to my own point of view; but I realize I should be discreet when it comes to certain persons based on various outside factors [and that I should remain loyal to them].

Lately, I've been attempting to shed all the bullshit that I ramble on about to people in hopes that I feel better about myself for it. Really, at the end of the day, I feel like more shit because I felt obligated to lie or make up something pointless in order to fill the voids of me 'not knowing'. Problem is, at this stage I'm rather incapable of doing things absolutely right. I'm not comfortable with telling the truth because of how easy it is to use against me. I'm starting to understand that this is just one of the risky factors of telling the truth and is part of life in general. Albeit, I must admit that last night was rather draining on me emotionally - and it only happened again today when I ended up going to Greenland Road to speak to Pamela about things. Opening up and expressing myself in a true manner feels much like self-harm (in the emo way) right now. Amanda assured me that it gets better in time...

So if you know me, kudos to you. If you don't, uh..welcome to my side of this website called "Live Journal". I've been posting here for quite some time; but today I finally got the nerve to just delete all of those foolish memories because I shouldn't live in the past. Plus, my good friend James has started using Live Journal for whatever reason. Might as well jump back on the proverbial bandwagon for one last ride...and do it right.

Endaeias

Honesty, and nothing but.